I spent all night wondering why you're still here...
Why haven't you left yet?
Why haven't you disappeared?
Am I doing everything right for you
Am I making it crystal clear
That I'm so afraid to lose you
My heart is filled with fear.
If my heart had a voice, it would only speak your name...
when it was happy, when it's scared, even when it is in pain.
And what my heart would say?
Only what I think about every day...
Like how childlike I feel when my arms are wrapped around your chest.
As if the world isn't scary...
As if my mind knows no stress.
Every minute I'm not with you, you're running through my mind.
How perfect you look while you're sleeping,
How it feels to know that you're mine.
All the things I used to hate, I don't hate when I'm with you.
I forget I even have a past,
You make everything feel new.
You opened up my heart, you weakened all my fears
and just in case I haven't told you today...
I'm so in lo...
I have this battle going on inside of me.
Sometimes I am sure of my worth. I am strong enough to stand tall beside him. Secure enough to know that I am a good girlfriend. Lover. I don't need any reassurance. We breathe the same air. His heart beats just as mine does. We're equal.
Other times I feel like I'm not good enough. Like I need to be something more. A perfect girlfriend. A perfect lover. I feel this craving for approval from him. Like I just need to hear him say it. Say that I'm good enough. That he sees me.
I don't know which one is true. Which one is all for show. I hope one day he'll tell me. Im sure one day I'll know.
I'm afraid if I let go
I won't get another chance
to look into your eyes
to hold your body tight
run my fingers through your hair
tell you everything, I swear
Like how I'll always love you
& how you mean everything to me
so I'll live forever in this moment
in my dreams we'll always be.
Looking deep into your eyes
under the intense moonlight sky
I can feel the temperature rise
as your body gets closer to mine
It gets harder just to breathe
when your arms are around me
but that's a risk I'll always take
along with heartache, because
tonight is for the books
Like every moment spent with you
and this feeling fluttering inside says
"I am so in love with you".
I wish the stars could talk
Give wisdom & advice
On how they still sparkle
in the dark & dreary night
I wish the moon could speak
A few words would suffice
To tell me how he came to be
So beautiful and bright.
For if I knew these secrets
I wouldn't feel so dim
But sparkle bright & shine
Forever just for him.