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Velma Kennedy

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Saudi Arabia
Saudi Arabia
www.aestheticvennedy.wordpress.com
May 2, 2016
 

*DIARY 2*

I know that a year have passed already while we are still apart. I do know that. But for some reasons , it still hits me every once in a while. I miss you. I may not be able to say it directly to your face because I know we won't get back to the old us , and I don't won't to get back because of sympathy. But I still do miss you.  Why do I miss you when you actually hurt me? I mean being replaced isn't something easy is it? Just looking at our old pictures and rereading the old conversations ,remembering fandoms or listening to old songs, don't they remind you of how happy we were? I still can't get over the fact that we are no longer best friends, or sisters as we used to say, but ...

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May 1, 2016
 

*DIARY 1*

"We all need a person to call ours; it's not out of possessiveness but rather out of love ;passion. And to be honest , not all of us get one. I donno if this should be considered luck or no , but sometimes having no person is way better. I do not have this person, let me be frank , I don't. That doesn't mean that I have no friends , nah , and it's not that I don't appreciate them , Not at all. But for me , that person hasn't come yet. The person I'd call at 3 am because I am not feeling well. The person I'd stargaze with on the rood just because it feels great. The person I'd take to a high cliff so that we both scream the worst we have seen in life. The person who doesn't need to ...

BARNEY
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May 1, 2016
 

You left me grieving for the loss of it , contemplating whether to let go or hold on a bit more.

-Vennedy.✒

DARK ASH GREY
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April 30, 2016
 

The Random fights,
And Sleepless nights,
The darkest holes,
And the blazing lights
Tell me you there , lemme know..
Don't be too high but not even too low.
How many times does it take
to feel the rebirth of no mistake ?

-Vennedy.✒

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April 28, 2016
 

Here we go again - with all the memories that we nearly forgot.
Perhaps we are destined to feel the pain - whether we demand it or not.

It's not like we asked for the torture nor for the bitter taste of grief.
But do we even have a choice? I mean we can barely choose what to believe.

Among all the misery that fell upon our souls and supressed our lungs in flames.
For the sake of  the times we craved to forget ,and all those familiar names.

I can feel it as I am able to deny , or rather  ask for an explanation that appeals to my logic.

Why do they call it overthinking when it actually feels like oversinking?

Vennedy.✒

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GREAT SCOTT!
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April 28, 2016
 

'It hurts' would be an understatement I swear.

Vennedy.✒

TAIBA BILAL
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January 14, 2016
 

And I gave up love for the sake of peace.

-Vennedy.✒

VICTOR HERBERT
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November 22, 2015
 

"We ,humans, regard flaws as patterns that ruin the way it was supposed to be. But actually, no. Infact, we are nothing but flaws tightly attached forming different combinations of atoms. Beautiful atoms , different atoms which grant each of us a unique personality and desire. Maybe it's just about accepting our own flaws and moving on."

Vennedy.✒

MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE
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November 15, 2015
 

1 am thoughts:

"To feel love , you don't have to be in a couple relationship.
love can be found within a family, within a friendship, within a grandma , within a teacher , or even within a loyal dog.

When you do all you can to cheer up your friend , that's love.
When you pray for your mother everyday before you sleep , that's love.
When you make sure to call your grandparents once per week , that's love.
When you save up to buy your brother a new toy, that's love.

And pure love,my friends , can be found at the darkest moments, when you confront the real soul of a person.
Perhaps, a moment of anger , happiness , sadness , sorrow , fear , joy or regret . It's when the soul reveals itself ...

TECH BURST
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October 25, 2015
 

Do not throw words to people; Say them only when you mean them.
For people believe what you say ; so don't decieve their feelings or else they won't trust you again.

Vennedy.✒

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NEON WILDERNESS
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October 24, 2015
 

"Being  tired isn't a sufficient excuse."

Vennedy.✒

PANELS
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October 21, 2015
 

Do you ever feel like nobody really cares?

I mean  you can be talking and nobody's listening.

You can be telling a story and nobody's interested.

You can be suggesting something and nobody pays attention.

You can just feel like shit and even the closest people do not notice it.

Even when they notice, they just start asking out of curiosity, no more.

But all that hurts. All this makes you feel unwanted and hard to love.

They make you feel worthless.

They ignore you.

What hurts even more is that you know that you are never someone's first choice;nor their favorite.

No matter how much they say they love you , they still choose someone over you.

But when is this going to change?

Becau...

ORIGINAL
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October 20, 2015
 

"You were the last thing I wished for before going to sleep."

Vennedy.✒

SPLASH
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October 19, 2015
 

Teach me how to redeem my mistakes,
And replace them with better deeds.

Hold my hand whenever it shakes,
And alleviate its pain when it bleeds.

Wipe the tears shedding on my cheeks,
and promise me it'll be okay.

Talk to me for days, no...for weeks,
And wander with my thoughts away.

I want to feel that you'll be there,
I want to have you by my side.

I want to acknowledge that you care,
Because , not for too long I can hide.

I wanted to say that you mean alot,
And I am grateful for having you.

Thank you for unbinding my soul's knot,
And loving me the way you do.

Vennedy.✒

ALOHA
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October 18, 2015
 

Teach me how to redeem my mistakes,
And replace them with better deeds.

Hold my hand whenever it shakes,
And alleviate its pain when it bleeds.

Wipe the tears shedding on my cheeks,
and promise me it'll be okay.

Talk to me for days, no...for weeks,
And wander with my thoughts away.

I want to feel that you'll be there,
I want to have you by my side.

I want to acknowledge that you care,
Because , not for too long I can hide.

I wanted to say that you mean alot,
And I am grateful for having you.

Thank you for unbinding my soul's knot,
And loving me the way you do.

Vennedy.✒

LETTRS TAXI
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October 17, 2015
 

•••I loved you more than I thought•••
•••••••And now I feel lost ;not•••••••
••••••••••knowing what to do••••••••••

•••••••••I know it's all my fault,•••••••••
•••••••that's what has stopped me••••••• ••••••••••••from blaming you••••••••••••

•••••But if there's any chance of••••• •••••••••••••••getting back,••••••••••••••
••••••••••••Just let me know••••••••••••

•••••Because I can nearly hear my••••• ••••••••••••••••heart crack•••••••••••••••••
•••••••••••••as fast-as slow••••••••••••••

••••It's not that I am waiting for•••• ••••••••••••you to return•••••••••••••
••••It's just that I hope you'd do••••

•••••••••Or rather my heart••••••••••
••••••••••would utterly burn,••••••••••
•••••••w...

LETTRS WOOD FADE
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October 17, 2015
 

What if being happy didnt become an old fad?
What if people weren't striving to be sad?
What if we didnt regret having what we had?
What if we didn't think about anything getting bad?
What if we didn't care about our clothes' brand?
What if we didn't blindly follow every ad?
What If we gave each other a helping hand?

Life would've been *VERY* different..
#IAmTalkingFromWhereIStand

Vennedy.✒

INK DROP
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October 12, 2015
 

You never know how meaningful a book is until you've read it yourself.

Vennedy.✒

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October 11, 2015
 

The mess hiding behind her smile,
Was never visible enough to be seen.
And the way she now chooses her style,
Is way different from what it have been.

She didnt want to change,
But it was pain that forced her.
She felt everything going strange,
But she was too sad to care.

All the sorrow hidden within her,
Was never noticed;not even by the closest people.
Therefore she had no choice but to blankly stare,
Realizing the fact that she became feeble.

Nothing ever contented her, more than books and colors.
She always read books; in the hope of forgetting her thoughts.
Even running through the gardens and picking flowers,
Didn't content her anymore.

And other times she'd start writing some love...

LETTRS TAXI
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October 8, 2015
 

I think it's not fair.
To not have someone to talk to
Someone to lean on
Someone to care
But instead you have those who
make you feel worthless
Make you feel unloved
Make you feel like complete shit.
Then why? Just why ? Why do we have to face all this ... Just a person .. one person .. who truly cares and loves you for who you are.
Can you tell me why? Why do people leave.
Why do they leave you once they 've found someone better why?
Do they not realize that they hurt you?
Why do they always play with your heart as if it's cheeper than ever!
It hurts..
For those who don't understand..
It does hurt..
So stop hurting the  people all around you ..
Start being there for them ..
Caring for th...

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September 22, 2015
 

Days went by, as I stared at the wall.
Nothing changed; just the same as before.
Colors on my desk and canavas down the hall.
I wondered if anything would ever change through this fall.
Because everytime the wind blew by,it took my favorites away.
Including my stuff , happiness, and the people who promised to stay.
But this time , it hit me so hard to know..
That I was forgotten by them all..
It hurt alot .. I felt terrible as the aches burned in my heart.
But all I've done was to continue staring at the wall.
Hoping for better feelings next fall.

Vennedy.✒

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September 20, 2015
 

-Hey
●Hi
-You okay?
●Yeah I guess..
-What is it?
●I don't know if I could tell you this..
-Hey we're bestfriends , no sisters actually! remember?I am not gonna judge you dude :P
●I get that..
-So.. what is it that have been bothering you lately?
● The thing is.. we aren't the same anymore .. I mean we don't get to sit together like before and talk and make jokes..
-Why are you saying that? I feel like we're the same!
●You have her now and you don't seem to need me anymore.We spend less time together these days.
- I am sorry but you're being oversenstive!! I don't think I have done anything wrong.. Why are  you so jealous of her?You know how I treat people! And I don't  feel like I treat you ...

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