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Whenever she starts thinking about him,
She re reads his last message to her.
The message that proved her right ...
The message with yet another set of lies...
Yet another set of shameless deeds.
The message with blames to cover up his fucked up behavior ...
The message which assured her... That she definitely didn't deserve him.
The message with nasty intention to conclude his part of being a jerk.
The message with conviction of losing everything ...
The message as a sign to her that even if she wanted to , she shouldn't go back to a weak man.
It's difficult for me...
To make my heart understand,
That you no longer
Are good for me.
Recalling our last exchange ...
I make myself realize ...
How right but painful decision I have made.
Of not letting a liar, a deceiver to be by my side.
You couldn't handle my messy soul, how can you deserve my loving heart ?
I guess the problem lies in not caring , taking for granted .
Once men get a yes...
Once 'the chase' ends...
Men stop making efforts, or probably make lesser efforts to keep their partners happy.
Remember the first day you met n week following it...
Now remember the day you felt he's diverting,hiding n get all wrong vibes ...
And the following week...
It's always about efforts...not just by words ..but by action. Staying true to your words needs guts.
I sit and recall ...
Had you not lied
Had you not lied again...
Had you had guts to be
The man you said .
Everything was perfect ...
We would spend the nights crazy...
Have morning coffees..
Had you just not lied ...
And kept your words.
Had you been the man ...
You ought to be.
Today, in your absence ...
He seeks comfort in her words.
Tomorrow, in your absence ...
He will seek comfort in her arms.
If loneliness makes a man go to temporary arms, imagine how weak his ethics are.
Absence doesn't "makes " a person vulnerable ...it's his weak mind .
One cannot give 24/7 attention , everyone is fighting a battle. And you should learn to fight yours on your own too, if you are mature enough.
Everybody deserves a second chance.
We are not known by what we do...
But how we rise given a chance after a fall.
If something wrong is done first time...its called mistake.
If same thing wrong is done for second time...its called intentional mistake. Wherein a person isn't ready to change. Repeated actions are indication of intentional doing. Such behavior cannot be trusted or given a chance.
But it didn't quench the thirst of heart.
Rather brought a drought to soul.
Life is an oxymoron.
Something between days you live and death you deal with.
Living each day while waiting your death.
As she stood by the window...
Her eyes caught the sudden bolt in the sky.
She wondered how alike her condition is.
A thunder had striked her heart again.
A breach , disrespect , disregard of her words, her vulnerabilities .
The secrets shared, the desired described...all in disdain .
Instead of allowing the space, she was confined n questioned about her nature.
Yet another disappointment.
But she will grow again , not losing hope of meeting the real soulmate who will never remind of her pain n heal her through mere presence.
If you cannot understand a person , let the person be.
Don't question his nature .
Don't question his patience.
Don't question his ways n methods .
Everybody has their own way of dealing things.
If someone is healing , recovering and you cannot add to it, atleast don't make them feel weak about it.
When it comes on own stability, others are expected to understand n support , but when it comes to others, you point fingers.
How difficult it is for someone to open up sometimes ...
How hard it is for someone to gain trust again...
How painful it is for someone to know the intimacy shared is breached...
The words , secrets, inhibitions shared weren't understood even after acknowledging them repeatedly .
It's like fuel to already ongoing fire inside...
Instead of understanding, person is accused n questioned about faithfulness.
Better to be by yourself...
Atleast your heart won't break. Again.
Try avoiding the worldly chaos ...Probably be somewhere near nature ...
Where wind blows through your face n clouds float above.
Birds fly in troops and leaves murmur a hym.
That's when your heart will smile ...
Cheek to cheek.
And you will find peace.
To be honest ...I don't know if anything at all around me is true or real.
It seems like some kinda mirage or illusion .
People working 9 to 5... Working their ass off then retiring and waiting for death , though fearing n avoiding death at the same time.
What's the purpose ? Where's the purpose ? Something just doesn't adds up to me. If anyone has any viewpoints about this , do share .
Is it right to ask a handicapped person to cheer up remembering the days he had healthy body?
No right ?
Then how can you ask someone to cheer up from past memories when the present needs solution rather than seeking comfort in bygone?
It feels so good to be back again!
I was missing this place so much . Now that my exams are over , I will be active. Hope everyone's doin good.
I'm having exams in few days ...I got prep break . So I will be going off grid for about a month (if I keep myself away from this app🙈)
Wish n pray me luck please ..it's my final n last year ... 9 subjects!! ..phew. 😣
Miss me 😝
My maa 💗
The woman who is my world.
Maa= warm blanket of love
Unbiased, unprejudiced , non judgmental.
Someone who always thinks, wishes n prays for my betterment, my happiness , my safety. (Even in sleep! I swear she worries n thinks about me at night , wondering what she would prepare for breakfast n lunch next morning that I would like to eat 😌)
Damn, as I write.. I'm smiling n my heart is pumped with love .
She has taught me so much ! There's always something new I learn ,when everyday I sit with her after dinner.
My mumma is working lady . So I always wait n look forward to see her , the way her eyes light up seeing me after tiresome long day. And of course the bear hug follows .💞
I look ahead now.
Strong and determined.
Nothing can break my soul n heart.
The dark clouds have gone.
I'm the thunder now.
I let the good wind blow through my hairs.
My life is beautiful now.
I can't believe I overcame through these
And I'm now at peace.
Smiling cheek to cheek
And the red lips...
I'm new me.
The title of the book seems interesting . I'm adding it to my to-read books list . Haha.
Well , I don't come under either category . I'm not extrovert for sure . But I'm not introvert either. Few years back when I had started going college I had realized I do not mix up with everyone but I'm not a loner either. Yes I do need time of my own . And it's very essential thing for me ..to be absolutely only with me. But again that doesn't mean I don't hang out or party with friends.
Looking for such traits and personality I discovered the word "AMBIVERT"
I had an online test for a few sets of questions which confirmed 😂
So yeah ..I like to be by myself ... Spend some time ...gain inner peace ...
Empty bed besides.
Loneliness builds and I break again.
If I could have a fictional character as a friend I would like to be friends with Elizabeth Bennet.
Elizabeth Bennet is a fictional character from one of my favorite novels " Pride and prejudice". It's written by none other than Jane Austen.
Lizzy or Eliza is a woman of substance . I relate to her so much . I have loved her so much ..all relating to her complexity , her hard work and her responsibility towards her family . A woman with opinion , a woman with beauty , a woman with brains.
I would love to hang around with her in the fields n country side described in book. Having food n discussing stuff. It would be amazing . Definitely we would learn few things n have great rapport.
Some of pigs out there...
Who think themselves as wolves
Need to realize wolves mate for life.
They believe in bond, family , packs.
They wander but together.
Through thick n thin.
Sometimes you know, I feel
Humans should learn from animals.
They have more ethics n morals.
Unsaid loyalty n love.
Let's get to know each other. In an open letter, answer the following questions and tag your letters 'penpals'.
1. What is your name?
2. How old are you?
22 years old
3. Where are you from?
4. How tall are you?
5. Are you a student? What do you do for a living?
I'm final year student .. Studying dentistry...
right now I just eat, sleep, study n breathe for living 😂
6. What's your comfort food?
Spicy Punjabi food
7. What's your favorite sport?
8. Who is your celebrity crush?
Oh well ... Channing Tatum n Gerard Butler
9. Are you religious?
10. How did you learn about lettrs?
I just came across through pl...
One of the silliest human tendency :
To push away the people who love ...
To go after the wrong ones.
And then feel lonely.
Oh you stupid human heart.
between lust n love...
Just like there's difference
between grey and black.
Lust may be pink
But love is blood red.
I know you are a mess
But aren't all we ?
I know you fuck it up
We are meant to be.
Though you are a trouble...
You are fuckable.
In your eyes that I see.
Get close and let's breathe...
The scent of love and seek.
Love can never make you weak.