Dear someone, who does not exist in 'my' world,
Today, I cried. I cried till my eyes ached, till my ears were dead, till my mind stopped functioning, till I was numb. My heart was too slow to process the blood any further. I cried because you are not a part of my life, but only music and darkness are. I listened to music just to feel the pain get more intense. I love it when this happens-when the pain empties everything that's inside of me.
In my thoughts, I felt myself walking towards you, slowly. I have no idea about who you are, or how it was even possible that even before I met you, I wanted to walk towards you, you made me walk towards yourself. It's strange that I slowed down...
It's only a part of you that is left to be lived, and you'll be gone too. Before you leave, I want you to know that I am really thankful that you ever existed. Thank you for holding my hands to save me from falling down or giving up completely. You've given me the strength no other year could, you've taught me things I needed to know before 2017 steps into my life. Thank you for sacrificing yourself to let 2017 have itself here. Everybody hates you just for a few years, before they know of what importance you were to them. But the sad part is, you'll be gone by the time they realize this.
I love you for being you, and for making me.
I see you in the coffee mug every morning.
I see you image of my own, my eyes which are concentrated on the reflection of my own eyes, which reflect your image.
Every morning when I would wake up with you serving me black tea, I had never imagined that one day you won't be here to share it with me. I want to kiss you and taste the tea from your lips, I want to hug you and tell you that it was the best tea I've ever had. Before you, I never had teas, before you I never knew how it would be like to taste it from your lips, before you I wasn't the person I am now.
And now that I am here, watching you in my own reflection, I can't believe I am addicted to tea, when really I don't eve...
Dear Man Of Words,
My mind, my heart, my soul died, just when the words died, to you they didn't mean more than just words, but they meant the world to me.
I would have died with a smile if you were the killer, I would have never come back to reality if you had asked me to escape, but I cannot see the words that your mouth spoke die, because they meant the world to me.
You walked away with your words, you killed the words, forgot that you ever spoke them, you did everything to prove that you never meant them, but they meant the world to me.
Your words could heal me, make my heart feel the things that I had never before, but the feeling wasn't destined to last forever. You took the words aw...
Dear someone I once knew,
I wish to know you again, I wish to read from you again, I wish to send you and receive from you the virtual hugs we used to exchange, I wish to have you in my dreams again, I wish to wake up early to text you morning, I wish to be awake till 2 in the night talking to you, saying that I'm not able to sleep without you by my side, and hearing the same, I wish to pray with you every morning, I wish to be honest with my feelings again, I wish have all my bones cracked from your hug, I wish to see you in your eyes and tell you that you're the one I've been looking for, I wish to feel for you again, I wish to be happy that no matter how depressed I am, I'll always have y...
I'd love to know the kind of humans this world has, besides the ones who're here to break me. My heart wants to believe what my mind already knows. But the fact that mind knows something that heart doesn't, kills me. In the middle of smoking, I find myself in the air, blown away with the smoke. In the middle of sleeping I feind myself dead, away from the reality that I ever existed. For one last time, can I know that I am not the only human for myself, that the world is there with me too? Words are not working for me anymore, and I'm too stubborn to give up on myself already.
I don't want to give up.