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Netherlands
May the force be with us
April 20, 2019
 

I looked into your eyes,
And what I did see,
Soothed me...,
Completely,
I felt so calm..,
Suddenly,
You are so lovely,
And I can't speak...

HAPPY EASTER
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April 20, 2019
 

I need to write right now,
I have to escape my head right now,
It's confusing me and I cannot think clearly right now,
It's frightning me, while there is nothing to be afraid of right now,
My head is spinning me, telling me nothing but lies right now,
Full of darkness and negativity right now,
That's why I write right now,
Because it ain't the truth, I know that,
I have to express myself and let it flow away right now,
Staying in my head ain't really a option, I am free, what a release, even when it's nonscence what I put down, I don't care right now.

CRUISE
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April 20, 2019
 

Happy easter everyone,
Sing your favorite song,
Make a dance around,
Life is like a game and we've already won,

Time of new life, sunshine and blue skies,
Dive in, smile on your face, and keep the faith,
Full of courage and serenity,
Forgiving, loving and chasing your dreams,

Take it easy, just breathe and let it be,
Just for today, walk your way, all the way,
Live like nobody is watching and be free,
Where ever you are, slowly open your eyes and see,

You are wonderfull,
You are okay, all the way,
One hundred percent,
Love yourself take care give and play,

Happy easter everyone,
I am curious,
What is your favorite song,
Write it down, let me know.

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HAPPY EASTER
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April 15, 2019
 

Where are you,
I am calling you,
Searching for you,
Longing for you,

I don't know your name,
Or how your face looks like,
I am walking through the pouring rain,
Asking myself where does she hide,

I am searching for so long,
Trying to hear your voice,
I will walk and carry on,
Untill we meet eachother and be together forever,

My heart belongs to you,
And all that I do,
I must be a fool,
But I am still on the move,

To find you my dear,
I will walk around the globe,
Blood sweat and tears,
But I need you so,

I will be yours,
And you will be by my side,
It's you I most adore,
I know what I feel and it feels all-right,

Hope to meet you soon,
Under a full moon,
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LOVE FINDS YOU
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April 12, 2019
 

Today I will remember the words of Oscar Wilde: ‘we are all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars’.

LETTRS 2019 STAMP
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April 12, 2019
 

3am,
Sleepless,
Eyes tired,
But not the mind,

Hours fly by,
Soft music soothes my ears,
Thinking, remembering, dreaming,
Of the good old times,

Go to bed and sleep,
Or stay up a little longer,
Just made some coffee,
All we can do is wait, work and wonder,

What tomorrow will bring,
Waiting for the first blackbird to sing,
Melodies like mysteries,
Carried by their wings.
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Goodmorning,
Even if you are still sleeping,
Or awake or daydreaming,
Have a nice day or evening,
Night or afternoon,
May your future be bright and shining soon,
That it will stop raining and the sky will be clear,
Praying that the storm and thunder will pass ...

LETTRS 2019 STAMP
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April 11, 2019
 

Going mad,
I feel sad,
I will be alone,
Sometime,

I want connection,
But what when it leaves,
And comes again,
Don't go....please,

It's over at the start,
An arrow in your heart,
And you don't feel that you are bleeding,
And loosing the war,

I don't want but I keep fighting me,
But sometimes I can see,
Something that I forget,
At the same moment suddenly,

You will go, like everyone,
You humble me low, turn my heart into stone,
Sometimes I try to pray,
That I will meet you guys again someday,

Or is that just a dream,
As long if it is real, it's okay with me,
I want to feel again,
And never forget anyone,

Even when I end up all alone,
Closing my eyes and see...

ORIGINAL
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April 10, 2019
 

Goodmorning everyone,
Rise and shine, let's come on,
A new day has begun,
Reach out and explore, and have some fun,

Sun is shining through my window,
I try to forget all of my sorrow,
As long as I can and get things done,
I need nothing more, just moving on,

And now I need some ideas to create,
I wrote a lot and now I wanna play,
My idea is to make music with what I penned down,
Spoken word, but I don't know where to begin,

So maybe someone can help me to choose a letter to enhance,
Please give a helping hand if you want,
Help me to choose a writing to work out,
Because I just can't,

Thank you anyway,
Have a very happy day,
You are one of a kind,
Don't leave that knowledge behind,

Ever.
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LETTRS 2019 STAMP
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April 10, 2019
 

44 minutes after midnight,
All seems peaceful and quiet,
I don't want to sleep yet,
Because this feels quite nice,

Thinking about life,
There is only one way to be true to yourself,
No excuses anymore, don't need to hide,
Don't be afraid of what you will find,

You are 100 percent okay,
Tell it yourself every day,
Be true to yourself,
Like I said, there is only one way,

Look yourself into your eyes,
Why lie to yourself in the first place,
Why deny who you really are,
Why imprison yourself, it's a real waste,

I am convinced you can find,
What you are searching for,
Seek patiently in freedom and peace,
The sky is the limit, and so is your mind,

You don't need to und...

SPIRIT
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April 9, 2019
 

Here are some notes I wrote down about recovery. The source of the notes is a book which I read, almost all, but I am taking my time. The longer it takes to read this book, and repeating it sometimes makes it possible to live longer if you understand what I mean. Taking my time to invest in myself and the "book" of life. Nothing more to say but here are the notes so far;

    • Just for today I never have to use (again)
    • We used drugs to survive, it was the only way of life we knew.
    • We ignored the times life appeared as a nightmare. We did not want to see the reality about our addiction.
    • Higher mental and emotional functions such as conscience and the ability to love were strongly i...

ORIGINAL
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April 8, 2019
 

Speed used to be my middle name,
Always driving the fastest lane,
Bashing like a freight-train,
Untill I crashed,

Mean and clean, my new way,
Fight 'n struggle to win, every day,
No dope, get lost, get out of my brain,
My life, my fight, my game,

And I'm just getting started.

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April 8, 2019
 

Flirting birds in the trees,
Flowers, sunshine and honey-bees,
Children playing in the streets,
I love spring-time and it's wonderful deeds,

Sun keep shining on,
Keep shining on and on and on,
Give us life, love and light,
You make me feel all-right.





ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS
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April 7, 2019
 

You know that I love you,
And Í know that you are not mine,
But when I think of your smile,
I am right there by your side,

I don't know where you are,
Or where you are going to,
But when I look up to the stars,
I wish you nothing but good,

I hope you think about me once in a while,
Remembering the good times we've had,
My love for you will forever last,
Don't worry about me, you are the best.



POETRY MONTH
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April 7, 2019
 

You are special,
Like you there is no one else,
Nobody fits you better than yourself,
All you need to do,
Just be you.

POETRY MONTH
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April 5, 2019
 

Pain,
In my brain,
Rain,
That seemed endless,

Dark clouds,
Full of doubts,
No more truth,
But I got out,

Never ever,
But maybe it will,
I don't want this never ever again,
I remain quiet and still,

Now I try,
To express,
The mess,
And I confess,

I am a little afraid,
To go to sleep,
Afraid to dream,
But I am tired, so please,

My dear demons,
Can you watch over me, while I am sleeping?,
And guide me, through the night?,
And wake me up tomorrow during sunrise?,

I don't need anything more than a little peace tomorrow,
Sowed in my heart to grow out of the shadow,
A little peace of mind, just a little seed,
That's all I will need, a little serenity,

Thank ...

ORIGINAL
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April 5, 2019
 

I lost contact with myself this day,
I found it back this day,
I don't know what happened, I can't explain,
I have no words for it, I just cannot say,

Was I trapped in a dream?,
More like a nightmare,
While I was awake?,
Was I?,

Like I was getting teared apart,
Between light and dark,
Left and right,
My brain ruling my point of sight,

I cannot comprehend,
I don't even gonna try to understand,
It happened, don't ask me how and why?,
I am just a simple guy,

An addict in a fight sometimes,
With myself I guess,
I thought this would be my end,
But I still am,

I don't know who to thank,
My higher power maybe,
I am not angry....   at all,
Just thankfull... that I cam...

POETRY MONTH
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March 30, 2019
 

On this day in 1853 the Dutch painter Vincent Van Gogh was born. A recent biography suggested that his death at the age of 37 was not suicide but an accident caused by two local boys playing cowboys with a faulty gun. The painter had been in mental torment with large mood swings for a long time.

Great paintings do not have to come from great emotional upheaval but, in the case of Van Gogh, the two are hard to separate because his feelings were so involved in the painting process. Whereas other artists such as Monet, for example, painted what they saw, Van Gogh painted what he felt about what he saw.

There is something infinitely moving about the thought of this lonely and unstable genius ch...

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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March 29, 2019
 

Someday, someway,

Every single person,
Will reach the doors of heaven,
If you expect it or not,
You will be knocking on the doors on number 77,

Because there is a love,
Unconditional without any limits,
It will wait for you high above,
And you will join the eternal spirits,

Maybe there is a hell or something like it,
But you will keep on walking and come through,
No matter who...you are and where you... are from,
You will reach eternal freedom..after all,

This is my hope, my faith, my believe,
This I write to you, you will receive,
You will make it, you will achieve,
More than we... can ever imagine,

There is something, someone,
Who loves you so incredible,
He will ...

NEVER GIVE UP
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March 29, 2019
 

This is a poëm I also want to share. It's called "The Lake Isle of Innisfree", by an Irish poët; William Butler Yeats:

I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made:
Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honey-bee;
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.
And I shall have some peace there,
for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning
to where the cricket sings;
There midnight’s all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet’s wings.
I will arise and go now, for always night and day,
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pave...

ORIGINAL
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March 27, 2019
 

This is one of my favorite poems which I just discovered."The Bridge Builder", by Will Allen,  It fits the stamp of today really good I think. Enjoy ;)

An old man going a lone highway,
Came, at the evening cold and gray,
To a chasm vast and deep and wide.
Through which was flowing a sullen tide
The old man crossed in the twilight dim,
The sullen stream had no fear for him;
But he turned when safe on the other side
And built a bridge to span the tide.
“Old man,” said a fellow pilgrim near,
“You are wasting your strength with building here;
Your journey will end with the ending day,
You never again will pass this way;
You’ve crossed the chasm, deep and wide,
Why build this bridge at evening ...

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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March 19, 2019
 

Out of my box, written on the 24th of September 2015 in the middle of my addiction.

Isolated, I am in bad company,
Lost in thoughts, memories and fantasy,
And no one to help me out,
I want to scream and shout it out loud,

Taking drugs, as much as I can,
Sober means misery, all over again,
But the drug is my enemy, pretending a friend,
And I'll be gone before life ends.

All I need is patience and faith,
Just keep on walking, it's not too late,
Hold your head high and back up straight,
And never give up.

INTROVERTS WEEK
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March 17, 2019
 

My addiction,
Getting,
faster, bigger,
Instant satisfaction,
Like a blinded gold digger,

Like a zombie,
Looking one direction,
Trying to get life easy,
It's not it...companion,

Hello my name is Yuri,
And I am an addict,
I am clean since the 4th of February,
3 million and 600 thousand seconds to here,

Recovery,
It's a process,
A rough expedition,
To wake up again,

Find back,
Who I am,
An distant star,
Shining bright from far,

Don't use too much force,
If you want to rise,
Don't resist no more,
No more disguise,

No more hiding,
No more fighting myself,
I have to try to be more kinder,
Learn to love myself,

It's easy talking, writing,
But you can do it ...

TRIUMPH
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March 17, 2019
 

Uppers,
Downers,
Mario's,
Bowsers,

Steady,
Trippin',
Steppin' in,
Out again,

Try to,
Fly,
Through your,
Mind,

And search,
Within,
Emerge,
Begin,

Explore,
Maybe,
There's more,
To find,

Yesterday is,
History,
Tomorrow is,
A mystery,

Today is a gift,
That's why it is called;

Present

••\\^*))---》》•♡▪☆▪♤•《《---((*^//•••

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 15, 2019
 

An old one out of the box, when I had a relation-ship with a woman I thought I never would lose, but I did unfortunately. I just wanted it to share this one here, it's only not finished yet, maybe someone wants to copy it and continue where I ended;

You are the girl of my dreams,
You're the most wonderful girl I've ever seen,
You can make me laugh, you can make me cry,
You can make me fall on my knees, you can make me fly,

You trust me and took my hand,
You love me and are my best friend,
You unchained the fire that's in my heart,
Of whole my life you must be the best part,

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THE BEST THING
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March 12, 2019
 

Lazy friday afternoon in the shade,
Sun is shining,  just like you do mostly,
I don't want to wait, so please don't be late,
I want you to be with me, always,

Just to look into the light in your eyes,
To follow your moves through the silky skies,
To feel your love touching my soul,
You make me whole again,

You are not the first, I admit,
But you are gonna be the last,
You take away my thirst, you struck, you hit,
Me straight in the middle of my heart,

So Miss Sunrise
Miss moonlight,
Miss starshine,
Are you coming with me?,

Miss sunrise,
Miss mid-night,
Miss soft breeze,
Miss all-right!

Yes you are all I think about,
You are between the pages, between the lines,...

IZABELLA KNOWS BEST
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March 12, 2019
 

Waiting for a sign,
I am ready for it so let it come,
I have patience like the 4 winds blowing forever,
To somewhere, nowhere, everywhere, where-ever,

I am standing at a unknown brigdge,
Staring over the water into the sun-set,
I am standing at the bridge, staring in the distance,
Waiting for a sign, I don't expect,

Love, where is it,
Am I am gonna get over it,
Am I going to feel it,
I will have patience,

Like a clock waiting to get winded,
Never knew what time evanished,
Clear view, never blinded,
And never has been banished,

Looking into the horizon,
Standing and gazing,
Out of time,
Into this heart of time,

Universe,
Universal,
Equal,
My call.

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 12, 2019
 

This is a dutch poëm I wrote a few weeks ago. It's about my father who died in 1988 when I was seven. It's called "Pap" what means "Dad". Maybe I will try to write a translation someday. But if there are any peeps who masters the dutch language, you can read it. It's dedicated to my father, still in me.

Pap,
Wat als je er nog was,
Als ik met je kon praten,
Naar je kon luisteren,
Dat je me deed ontwaken,
Dat je me kon raken,
Dat je me kon laten lachen,
Door mn eigen falen,
Dat je me liet leren,
En mn hart open zou laten gaan,
Om het tij te keren,
Om me te laten bestaan,

Ik kan me weinig van je herinneren,
Niet de klank van je stem,
Of je ritueeltjes en je handelingen,
Ik he...

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 12, 2019
 

Medicine,
Caffeïne,
Nicotine,
And some soulfood,

Listening,
Digging,
Questioning,
What's my mood?,

My emotion?,
My motivation?,
My inspiration?,
My intension?,

Sometimes,
But sometimes also not,
Writing down lines,
What am I all about?,

What are you all about?,
What motivates you to finish the round?,
For me it's hope and faith,
We will all get there someday,

There is magic in the air,
Maybe not, call me a liar,
But there is more between heaven and earth,
Of that I am shure.

WON'T STOP
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March 12, 2019
 

Born in Arnhem 22021981,
On an early sunday around 00.10am,
I am a dreamer from the begimning,
And that will never stop,

My mother gave me birth,
And I am grateful for being on earth,
I will love her and my father,
Forever,

We moved a lot, city to city,
I had a lot of people to meet,
School to school, street to street,
My roots are all around the country,

Never settled, I am a traveller,
By mather of speaking,
I am a collector,
Of all I have seen,

Moodswings,
Yeah I know,
It's because of my broken wings,
Wich are slowly recovering,

I never finished college,
Maybe better too,
So my dreams did not get any damage,
I am quite a fool,

But I am learning,

My way, my pace,
We don't need to hu...

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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