|That one chapter I haven't read out loud, is finally disclosed here.|
The one I miss.
Its hard to give up but its even harder to keep trying on things you know will never work. Although, I keep thinking about all those beautiful memories again and again but its hard to hold. Its hard to go with the flow. I miss how we used to be. I miss our endless conversations. I miss our breathless laughs. I miss us. I miss you, the old you. I tried to toe the knot tight. I tried to never let us apart. I tried everything that I ever could. But we broke anyway. I guess you don't want me anymore. I guess you love your present you and hate to look back. I guess you're happy with your present. But if you give me a minute ill tell you about how much I miss us. How much I miss...
It's hard to believe in sudden endings yet we believe. It's hard to believe in new beginnings yet we believe. It's hard to accept some hidden facts but they're true. It's hard to go with the pain but we do. Maybe you never know but someone may have suffered alot in such a small life. Maybe they have gone through hell and came back to life. Maybe they never proved you those spoken lies. Maybe they never told the stories behind their fake smiles. But let me tell you they're fine, absolutely fine. They live by believing in destiny's devine. They love to know and explore those mysterious minds. They just wanted to see you happy or fine. And no matter what you have done with them they will make yo...
I want to see him once again. I want to tell him that I miss him. But no! I can't do that. You call it ego or self-respect, I don't care. But things have changed so much now. Well, I care about me more than him. I want me to be myself again. I want me to be happy again. And for that I have to stop myself from thinking about someone who doesn't give a damn about me, who wants me when he needs me, who doesn't want to show his love, who doesn't want me to be near him. So, why should I? Why should I waste my precious time on him? I guess, he was never worthy enough. So let me respect myself first and let him go.. for sure.
Do you remember when first time you called me, *mine*?
Do you remember when I asked you to never leave me and you assured me that you will always be by my side?
Do you remember the way you used to make me jealous?
Do you remember our late night confessions?
Do you remember our everyday dreaming?
Do you remember me? Do you remember us?
I wish you do because.. I miss you..
And remember that time when you wanted me badly? You were crazy about me. You wanted to know me. Explore me. You wanted to know whats that spark in me which make me different from everyone else. You wanted to know the story behind my unlimited showering smiles. You wanted to know the secrets behind my wide eyes. Remember that time when you made me believe in me. Remember that moment when you told me you are beautiful in each and every way possible. But.. when I let you come closer, when I shared all those secrets.. you found an advantage from them? My story helped you to break me even more faster than you planned. Yes you wanted a revenge. I never meant to hurt you but I did and so did you. A...
People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a cellphone. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your rig...
Broken Hearts. Broken souls.
Still trying to hold.
Still hoping to be their old selves again.
Still wondering what will happen next.
Still wishing for their second chance..
thinking if they will be together or forever apart.
I can't breath. I can't see. Everything is so dark and suffocated here. They told me that I should lighten up my path and learn to face my fears but how do I? When all the brightness of my life has been taken away from me. I wish I could shine again. I wish I could let happiness rule over this sadness.. emptiness. Yes I want to shine again. Yes I want to be myself again but I am still trying to find it. They say I should learn to fight with my demons but all I can do is stand and stare, they are ruining me, hurting me and I can feel them causing pain but, I can't protect myself as all I learned in my life was to give love, to spread happiness, to always shine, to always trust, to be nice no m...
Life is pain,
Life is not fair.
I keep telling myself I can do this no matter how hard the pain is I will find a way to get over it.. but you know what, it was always killing me from inside and now I am done.. I cannot let myself float anymore. So let me just give up and let myself sink, I just want to feel the pain. So let me just tell myself that YES! YOU ARE HURT and YES! THEY MADE YOU FEEL WORST. I wish I could let myself float but I am sinking. I wish somebody was here to help me out but nobody can see me, as I am in a deep.. deep sea. My eyes are still wide open and I can see everyone floating but still I am sinking and nobody is here to save me. Last I remember was they were trying to ...
He learned to never make bestfriend.
She learned to never love bestfriend.
Pretending to be a stranger when you know them really well, is a tough job. Pretending as if they meant nothing to you when you cant even stop yourself thinking about them, is hard. Pretending as if you don't care when you see them being happy with others but not with you, hurts.
And you know the time when your heart will rip into pieces, is when they say hi to you with no feelings in them just forcefully to pretend.. is when they talk to you but with a fake smile on their face as if they don't want to have a conversation anymore.. is when they talk to everyone out there and made you realize that they are happy without you just to hurt you enough.. Its all a game of unlimited attractions. Y...
When you lose them you lose your rights too. You lose your worth in their hearts. You lose your position in their lives. You lose everything you once had with them. And you know what sucks even more? Watching them everyday as a stranger. Seeing them smile and happy with others, while they look at you as you're nothing but just a shadow.
So what, if you've been ignored?
So what, if they don't trust you anymore?
So what, if they started hating you now?
So what, if they started blaming you now?
If you trust in yourself, If you believe in yourself,
*You are definitely going to win through it all*
Sometimes you have to feel the pain of others. Give them comfort. Assure them that you'll never leave. Tell them that how beautiful they really are. How admirable their personality is. That they can get whatever they want if its meant to be. There are alot of people out there who feel the pain and heal the pain but they never try to forget the pain but my friend, if I recommend I'll ask you to share the pain.
From you are everything to me to we are *best friends* and then to just friends. From late night calls to day time messages. From everyday messages to expecting your name for once in my notification bar. From everyday meet-up to not seeing eachother at all. From actually watching you smile when you look at me to imagining the way you used to smile. I have gone through heaven and hell in the same person I met. He was my sunshine but my shore. He was my rainbow but my rain. I felt warm near him but cold at the same. I saw dark blue oceans in his eyes but with darkness all around. His lashes swung me to never land. His smile toke me to that soothing feeling of morning freshness. His whole was as...